I’m at my breaking point. All this has come to, is me crying myself to sleep every other night. I mean I know I am my own worst problem, but its hard to let go of someone if you still love them. Its not like he left, but just the way things are… I feel like his life would be better without me. He has said a million times before that he doesn’t want me to leave… but I just feel like I should. I told him that I don’t want my heart broken, but he’s already broken it countless of times… Making promises that were never fulfilled. It hurts… waiting to be with someone for a year and a half. Its literally eaten me away. You feel as if you’re never good enough to actually be with that person… Its like sometimes when I hang out with him, I’m just dead quiet. There are so many thoughts running through my head, I can’t even pull myself to reality. It just sucks.
