I really just don’t want to be home right now… I don’t want to be anywhere near hear. I’m such a mess right now… It hurts to even breathe or think or do anything at all… I just want to leave.
Telling me to be ready by a certain time, which consist of me running around trying to get ready and then telling me that you’ll be late…. SLDKJLDKJLSKD…. GODDAMMIT…..
It seriously aggravates me when you’re hanging out with me and you still put your attention on your phone. Meaning you text other people. That’s not what bothers me though… what bothers me is that you can’t seem to text me when you’re hanging out with other people… seriously. What the fuck. It pisses me off to the extreme…. I’m so frustrated. First of all, how can I trust someone 100% completely if they play with my heart AND if they don’t treat me fairly… alkjdalkjdalkdj…..
It was pretty great, although we completely missed what we went out for. Stupid store shut down. Oh well… It was nice just cuddling in the car. (:
I don’t know whats going on, but I have a bad feeling about it for some reason… I don’t like it at all…
I’m at my breaking point. All this has come to, is me crying myself to sleep every other night. I mean I know I am my own worst problem, but its hard to let go of someone if you still love them. Its not like he left, but just the way things are… I feel like his life would be better without me. He has said a million times before that he doesn’t want me to leave… but I just feel like I should. I told him that I don’t want my heart broken, but he’s already broken it countless of times… Making promises that were never fulfilled. It hurts… waiting to be with someone for a year and a half. Its literally eaten me away. You feel as if you’re never good enough to actually be with that person… Its like sometimes when I hang out with him, I’m just dead quiet. There are so many thoughts running through my head, I can’t even pull myself to reality. It just sucks.